the struggle never ends

Just when you think everything is going well, you hit a wall. I didn't have the best weekend. It was filled with stress and school work, little sleep and bad eating. I woke up this morning feeling discouraged as I looked in the mirror and studied by body. I've lost muscle tone and I've gained flab. I can see it. There's no more denying it. I haven't been working hard enough to reach my goals and it shows. I've been having a pity party all morning, but the truth is I just need to get my shit together. If I want a thin and toned body I need to Work For It. It's not going to be handed to me, and I just can't allow myself to take shortcuts because then I'll never reach my goal.

I think once this week is over and midterms are over I'll be able to think more clearly about what I need to do to get there. I really think I need to start running more regularly. I'll go to the gym and do the elliptical or 10-15 mins of sprinting/walking on the treadmill but I don't think that cuts it. Or maybe it's the weekend overeating that's really holding me back. I told myself I was going to keep things rolling since I was doing so well last week, but with stress + school + work I just couldn't handle it all and found myself eating my feelings this weekend. I didn't go super overboard, but I did sneak in pretzels, Easter candy (why is that even out right now?!), and a cookie or two. I feel ashamed and upset because I feel like I'm letting you (and myself) down.

I think I really need to just take a deep breath, relax, and keep on trucking along.